But it's torture, standing there so close, watching your chest rise and fall as he fiddles with the phone. He has to hold himself back because he knows that if he so much as touched you, he couldn't hold back. It's so unbearably tempting, you have no idea - you're right there and so vulnerable. He's smart enough to realize that if you're paranoid, you might have mentioned him by username to someone else, so to ensure he knows what to do from this point, he has to sneak into your apartment at night as you sleep. And he keeps telling himself that once he's all you have, he'll matter even more. He matters, even if it's not in a good way. You're forced to have him constantly in your mind, whether you like it or not, just like you are in his. It used to irritate him that you held so much power over him, while he meant nothing to you. Now you finally understand the same feeling you inflict on him, how you consume his thoughts every waking moment of every day. You're worried, you're constantly paranoid, and it's because of him. He starts to enjoy the weird feeling of power the whole situation is giving him. Already watched you struggle to carry packages he could lift with one hand, your strength doesn't cross his mind as a threat.Īt first he just doesn't know what to say, and that's why he stops responding, he feels too awkward but. Height, weight, birthday, social security number, parents' names, school she graduated from. He has a note in his phone with information like that. That must be your dominant hand, that's an important mental note for the future, since you're more likely to try to attack him with that hand. He watched you buy it, and is quick to realize you always hold it in the same hand. You buy pepper spray and start carrying some around, you nearly spray a poor guy who you thought was trailing you, turns out he just lives in your building. You're hesitant and suspicious of every guy you meet. The way you word it makes it sound like you're worried about him, but you both know that's not what you really mean. You send him messages saying you haven't heard from him in a while and you're worried. It's like he disappeared? He hasn't responded to anything you send him ever since you said your name. This dude who used to respond to any messages you sent within 10 seconds suddenly. And you connect the weird feeling to him, bc he goes radio silence for several days leading up to finally taking you. You're not stupid, you know something is wrong, you're becoming paranoid. Kinda surprised, really, that you didn't lie to him. He can't do much with just your first name, right? If your name is common, you feel pretty safe, but even if it's a rarer one, surely there are other people with it, right? And it would be easy to give him a fake one, yet, you don't really think about it too much, you kinda think about that as an afterthought, what you should have done, but your very real name is typed out and sent before you really process it, and you feel a sort of unease, but it's already sent. For someone who's so cautious, you would think you would think to give a fake name whenever you go to coffee shops for them to yell out, or change it on the packages you get. He also doesn't tell you that he already knows, that this is just a test of your honesty. He avoids using the term "anniversary," even though that's what comes to mind. He doesn't need a last name, nothing like that. You can also find us all on Instagram–and join Sunscreen Week yourself–with #nutsforballs (because they’re all nuts for my balls ::grin:: I cannot speak to balls in general).Your real name, he clarifies. Our furrrriends will be posting all week long, / / Bella Noir / Fifty Shades of / Little Bit of / VanityRex SUN’S OUT, BUNS BALLS OUT.Ĭheck in to our blog and Instagram all week for new posts (May 19-25). Only a month left in the campaign and we need every vote to bring my idea for sunscreen balls to life. Keke.Īnd of course, I’ll be urging you all to VOTE for my sunscreen by clicking here. Our favorite sunscreens, lessons learned (sometimes painfully), application tips…basically every topic under the sun. What’s Sunscreen Week? We and several other bloggers and Instabloggers will be posting all week about sun protection. What better time to announce Sunscreen Week? The UVA and UVB rays have ramped up as well. We’re on the cusp of summer, and here in DC, temperatures have just barely emerged from fall-like temps…and immediately ramped up to the 90s.
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